It's heartbreaking, and a bit frightening - there but for the grace of the gods - and the worst part, in the midst of feeling so bad for these women, is that there is no way out. This is a life decision, and if it's the wrong one it can be a life sentence.
Some bits and pieces really stood out for me, and I'll quote them, and hope the mostly-anonymous women who posted them know I feel for them and wish them the very best, and much strength.
"I love my daughter yes, but I do not like being a mom because I never wanted the title. Now my social life is ruined, my body is ruined and I’m living a life I never wanted. I don’t know if my marriage is going to last and I may just end up packing up and leaving without telling anyone where I am."
"My 6 year old sucks the life blood out of me. When I complain about her people look at me like I’m nuts – like we are all supposed to paste a smile on and pretend motherhood is the best thing on earth."
"It brings tears to my eyes to read this for two reasons: 1) I feel exactly like so many of you do, and 2) I feel we are all trapped in this existance. I love my children, but I so wish I had chosen a different path. Not to say that it would have been easier or even better… but I want more than anything to be able to disappear from my reality."
"I hate life everyday and have to lie to myself to keep going, I feel like my ambitions are faded and when I look in the mirror I don’t know who is looking back at me. Being a mother is not fulfilling like people say it is, maybe it is to them or maybe they’re lying…some people need to be needed and some of us don’t."
"I empathize with every mother here who believed what the media portrayed and others told them about how amazing it was to be a mom. I too fell for it. I am now hating life and everything that comes with being a mom."
One of the things I personally cannot stand is the negative way motherhood can impact on some women, and the lack of social support there is for those who just can't deal with it. It's all tied in to the homogeneous "Motherhood is the best thing a woman can experience" crap peddled by our societies. Even when women do speak up they are told "yes, but it's all worth it, isn't it?"; many are made to think they are not only bad mothers but bad people. Those who have a read through the link posted above will see a supposed mother (possibly a troll - one can but hope) saying these mothers expressing their angst and frustration at a life they did not want should have their children taken away by Child Protective Services. So they're forced to put the mask back on and maintain the lie that motherhood is always rewarding.