tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32883893748076746712024-03-06T00:26:04.572+13:00HagstoneA Hagstone is a stone or pebble with a naturally occurring hole from one side to the other. They are thought to be magical items, to ward off evil, or to be gateways to the Otherworld. It's said that a person who finds one is blessed indeed.
This blog focuses on women's issues, witchcraft, and Paganism - as well as the odd article, rant or comment on politics, religion in general or What's Wrong With The World Today.Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger153125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288389374807674671.post-88851192410800970192015-10-18T01:30:00.003+13:002015-10-18T01:37:57.043+13:00Beat, Beads<div style="text-align: justify;">
I've changed my room around, and doing so has changed my head in a way. I sleep right alongside my altar now, and it's easy to sit on the edge of the bed and read the beads or pray before going to sleep. </div>
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Tonight I sat down and adapted one from <i><a href="http://www.bookdepository.com/Dewdrops-Moonlight-Shanddaramon/9780615144979?a_aid=azelma">Dewdrops in the Moonlight</a>:</i></div>
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It was quite fulfilling. I picked the mantra to help me with my anxiety, and I feel as though it did. I'd like to really think about other quick, simple mantras I can use, so I have something else other than fear to meditate on.<br />
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My focus is on meditation at the moment. I'm feeling prods from Odin and Hel, and I feel like They want more from me in that area. There's a lot, too, I have to read, and a few books I have to reread as well. I've been sleeping for years and it's time to wake up.
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288389374807674671.post-69170248377904305682015-07-31T23:15:00.003+12:002015-07-31T23:17:22.482+12:00It's been a long, long time.<div style="text-align: justify;">
So long, I don't even want to look and see how long it's been. Over six months, definitely. </div>
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I confess I just... haven't felt the need to come back here. I have other projects on the go, and <a href="http://earth-paths-green.tumblr.com/">my tumblr</a> which I've been more active on lately. And I've been relatively satisfied. </div>
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I've actually felt lately like I have too many blogs. I've been trying to cut down, and to focus on the ones I really want to succeed, and Hagstone has taken a back seat. Which is a shame, you know, because I like this place. I like what I've done here. And I want it to LIVE.</div>
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I've been focussing on research more. I had a period of existential wossname not too long ago, followed by a moment of freedom. I still feel like there's something out there I want to get a grip on, but I'm not sure what it is. However I <i>do</i> feel like I'm moving towards it. That I'm doing the right things, and moving in the right direction - albeit slowly.</div>
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I have a great new <a href="https://www.etsy.com/shop/FoxyDori">foxydori</a> into which I've put four notebooks and a folder. I'm taking notes in them, and I've made myself a rule: nothing negative. Nothing venting anger, no cross commentary on terrible books. Just interesting things, ritual records, that sort of thing. Later on, I intend to take the choicest pieces to add to a grimoire. I don't know what I'd call this.... a workbook, a companion... If you have ideas for a name for it, let me know. </div>
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I have one book for my religious Witchcraft, one for Heathenry, one for Loki, and a small one for prayers. (My craft's prayers, that is. All my Heathen prayers are going in the Heathen notebook for now.) I'm really enjoying it as a tool and I'm getting more work done which is good and positive. I've also been meditating a few times a week which is important. One thing I am on the lookout for is new meditation ideas: things to focus on or to achieve. </div>
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Tonight is the full moon, and one area of my practice that I still haven't nailed down is what I want to do on particular moon phases. I feel a desire to do <i>something</i>, not a prayer but an action, but I don't know what that is. I've browsed various rituals online, but most of them are "cast circle, say these words, you're done". I don't cast a circle so I'd just be praying, which, again.... not what I'm looking for. I suppose the circle casting raises the ritual aspect of it quite a ways. Maybe I should sing a song? </div>
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Some people can, though. <a href="http://io9.com/5887796/has-all-of-humanity-actually-forgotten-the-right-way-to-sleep?utm_campaign=socialflow_io9_twitter&utm_source=io9_twitter&utm_medium=socialflow">There's a thing called bimodal sleeping</a>, where people have a first and second period of sleep, with an hour or two of wakefulness in the middle. My dad sleeps this way, as does a friend of mine; they wake up naturally, have a snack, do some yoga, watch a little tv, and back to sleep again.</div>
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I do not sleep this way. I lie around until 4am watching YouTube vids until I manage to drift off. Falling asleep actually at night is something I'm not very good at. Which kind of sucks because - and you may know this - viewing dawn from the wrong side makes dawn a far less mystical experience. Dawn is thus something I get to experience only rarely. This is something I consider a shame.</div>
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I love the idea of a rhythm to life, sleeping and waking, that changes as the season does. And I love candles. And, fortuitously, I live next to a beekeeper. <i>I might actually be able to make my own wax candles.</i> Saves on money! </div>
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I tried it last night. Lights went off at 9pm, about an hour after twilight. Red filters on all my screens (I use Twilight on Android and Flux on PC) and candles lit (right now, I'm going through my supply of scented candles people keep giving me. Apparently they can cause cancer so it is not a long-term plan). </div>
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Tempted to give up? I am. But the appeal of waking early, sleeping early, having a special quiet time at night to stretch and read and meditate, is so great that I want to give it a go. To connect in this way with the ancestors. And I love candlelight. </div>
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Plus, I have fibromyalgia. Sleep issues and fatigue come with the territory; if this can help me feel more rested I am 100% eager to give it a go.</div>
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No screens tonight, if I can help it. Lights only in the bathroom (because I tried it by candlelight last night and it is impossible). Bring on The Night. </div>
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Late summer is always a difficult time of year to feel spiritual. Too hot, too bright, and the heat is bad for my health, which doesn't help matters. So things can be tough. But I'm still trying to meditate as often as possible, to pray, to breathe, to stretch. And to read.</div>
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A lot of witchy-pagan books are just the author going on about nature this and seasons that. They can be very low on actual content. But sometimes - and right now is one of those times, for me - reading just someone's thoughts can be helpful. Even (or especially) if I disagree with them.</div>
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I'm reading Poppy Palin's <a href="http://www.bookdepository.com/Craft-Wild-Witch-Poppy-Palin/9780738705774?a_aid=Azelma"><i>Craft of the Wild Witch</i></a> at the moment. I started it ages ago, became annoyed with her, and put it down. I've picked it up again, and started over. And yes, she uses a lot of genuinely ridiculous terms, but before I was reading searching for information. I was craving something new, something <i>solid</i>. Real, actual information I could get my teeth into. Now I'm just looking for something to make me feel. </div>
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I do disagree with her, though. Palin talks about how humans make straight lines through everything, and how straight lines lead to people climbing over one another to get to the top. But the pansy, she says, has no such thoughts; it, and nature, live in circular lives where everything is interconnected.</div>
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And, yes, sure - but nature is all <i>about</i> competition. It's how things survive, and adapt, change, evolve. The pansy is colourful to attract pollinators. It reaches up to the sun to best obtain its energy. Grow too slow and another plant might block out your sun. It's everyone for themselves in nature, and it's far from peaceful and pretty. And humans are a part of that.</div>
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I realised for example how much my focus on "property lines" - on barriers and fences - can hinder as well as help. That need to have personal space and keep everything else out is a facet of my personality, and not necessarily always a healthy one. I can acknowledge that and still cling to it. But the world doesn't always think that way. Home ranges overlap. The earth stretches on and on. The wind blows in many directions. I've let myself become to fixated on Mine vs Yours. Yes, this is my home, and no, I don't want every damn entity invading it, and that's fine and sensible. But I can't let that concept control all my thinking. I've become far too rigid.</div>
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I suspect that's the anxiety's fault. It's made me stiff and stretched me taught. I have to remember to dance, to go with the flow and follow the breeze, and notice again how things intersect and overlap and how the world stretches on. </div>
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Reading various spiritual, magical, or religious books more regularly is part of my spiritual plan for this year, and this sort of thing is a big reason why. A lot of people move past reading books like this, and that's fine. I like to go back and remind myself of bits and pieces - though admittedly, these ideas might not be what the author intended to communicate. Potentially the opposite! The value's still there, for me. Quite possibly things would be different if I was a part of a Pagan group or coven, as I'd have other people bouncing ideas off me more often. That's not the case, though, and for me, I like the written medium for communicating ideas. I can absorb them at my own pace, take notes, scribble in the margins, and write blog posts about them. I can invite people to discuss those ideas (feel free to chime in in the comments!).</div>
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I bought some <a href="https://www.etsy.com/nz/listing/215986317/wire-wrapped-bronze-witches-ladder?ref=shop_home_active_2">prayer beads from Etsy</a> in January, part of my renewed focus on prayer and meditation. They're set out in sets of 3, 7, 9 and 21 and are a beautiful green-blue colour. I'd like to add a little brass stag to one end, to complement the little spiral goddess, but I haven't found one yet. They make a pleasant jingling noise and I enjoy running them through my fingers.</div>
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I also bought John Michael Greer's <a href="http://www.bookdepository.com/Pagan-Prayer-Beads-John-Michael-Greer/9781578633845?a_aid=Azelma"><i>Pagan Prayer Beads</i></a> which makes me itch to make some, but I think I'll stick with accumulating beads for a while. And since I'm not really inclined towards buying any at the moment, it may take a while. In the meantime, I'll see what's floating around on etsy if I ever feel a yen.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288389374807674671.post-79493590277295270712015-01-02T16:03:00.002+13:002015-01-02T16:03:18.974+13:00Spiritual Goals<div style="text-align: justify;">
A new year, and this time I'm not filled with the desire to start a new blog or something. This year I have a beautiful new planner, a desire for peace, and a few easy goals to keep to.</div>
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Greet the day, by going outside, breathing the air.</div>
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They're small and they're aimed at bringing the spiritual more into my everyday life. My planner has a section for spiritual matters, where I've written out the <a href="http://www.archaeoastronomy.com/2015.html">Sabbat dates</a> and a few chants and prayers I've composed. What I'd like to do is make sort of collage shrines, as well, but I'm not sure at this point how that's going to work out. I suppose I could go through my mother's old gardening magazines, or something. I want them to be peaceful, and uncluttered. </div>
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And I've started work on my staff, finally.</div>
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I found it last year, early in the year, and had a mind to get it done by May and Old Year's Night, but that never happened. I've collected some bits and pieces I'd like to hang from it, but no more than that, and some sort of moth seems to have eaten all my feathers. So I'll need to find more feathers. An old key, preferably one I find naturally, but you know how some things are difficult to find. Hagstones. Shells. Things that are symbols of my craft, basically - things that hold significance to me. </div>
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I sat down and sanded it today. The knobs where some twigs had broken away won't disappear, but they'll be good to hang things from. The wood is a bit more smooth now I've sanded back a little of the bark, and I think I'll leave it as it is, as it has a lovely grain to it with a bit of the bark still on, and even a hint of green. The stick is dry and dead, of course; it's been sitting next to my bookshelf for a year and was dry when I found it. It looks nice, though. </div>
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My Path in the Woods is dark and overgrown, and I have paused, to sit in peace and wait for the way forward to become clear.</div>
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Hi everyone and Happy Solstice!</div>
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I'm about to sit down to my Summer Solstice ritual. Things are all over the place this year, possibly because I've been meditating way less than I should be. I feel scattered. Although, maybe that's just the fibro-brain. </div>
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A friend of mine and her band wrote a song about Christmas in the Southern Hemisphere - <a href="https://m.soundcloud.com/rockyandthebeats/fuck-your-white-christmas">listen here</a>. It's basically how I feel about this time of year. It's summer, and that's fine.... why have we adopted all these winter-based decorations? Can't we just celebrate the season we have? It's a great time of year to have Christmas. You can put strawberries in your champagne. You can play cricket on the beach. You can sit up until the sun sets around 9pm drinking gin and tonic on the deck. It's a great time to get together with family and exchange gifts and celebrate. And it's not like Midsummer wasn't a big celebration and time of gathering for the Heathens. Though they may have held it later in the year. No matter; the summer holidays basically last through until February. No one is expected to be productive from mid-December right through January. We even have <i>two</i> days off for New Years, presumably because everyone is expected to have a two-day hangover.</div>
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It's sort of odd, having been a Heathen and of a specific form of Hedgecraft for so long at this point. I saw a post on tumblr that used the phrase "Celtic Yule blessing" and my brain turned inside out in an attempt to wrap itself around that concept. <i>Celtic. Yule. </i>I went through "The Celtic religions don't celebrate the solstices!" and then "Why would a Celtic Pagan use the word <i>Yule</i>? That's a Norse holiday!" to a point where I tried to work out how a Celtic Pagan would even adapt a Heathen holiday for their own use, and why they would want to. </div>
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It was <i>hours</i> later that I realised they didn't mean <i>Yule</i>, they meant eclectic-NeoPagan-Sabbat-at-the-winter-Solstice. Literally hours later that occurred to me. And then I got very slightly sniffy about it. Not of the "THEY NICKED OFF WITH OUR HOLIDAY NAME" variety, but of the "WHY WOULD THEY CALL THEIR HOLIDAY YULE IT JUST FUCKING CONFUSES PEOPLE" variety. </div>
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My brain still refuses to parse "Celtic Yule" as a concept. I just revert to "YOU CAN'T HAVE CELTIC YULE, THAT IS NOT A THING THAT HAPPENS". Then I throw up my hands and mutter to myself. Not a jab at OP, either; the person who posted the post was being helpful and is just repeating the basic ENP stuff that's been floating around for decades. It's not really vexing, it's just one of those things I find really odd and confusing. It probably annoys Celtic polytheists more than it does me. </div>
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I've been seeing quite a few hedgehogs recently. Mostly squashed on the road. Last week I saw a little one rolled up in a sleepy ball under a hedge, and tonight, while I was walking my dog, I saw a little dark shape waddling across the footpath. It was a snuffly little hedgehog and he disappeared into the grass. My dog did not know what to think. Are they naturally more active in summer, or is it hedgehog breeding time, or what? I like seeing them around. Sweet little things. Plus they eat slugs, which is a godly duty.</div>
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Man, what to say. I feel... good. I mean, health-wise, I'm always up and down. Yesterday was really hard with fatigue and sore tender points on my hips, but I have a lot more energy today. I'm learning to take the bad days as they come, and recognise them and take the time to rest. <i><b> </b></i>You can't always do all things all the time. I'm getting really into the "planning" community, filofaxy stuff and that, and I've put a <a href="http://www.kikki-k.com/">kikki.k</a> planner on my Hexmas list (thanks <a href="http://www.evilsupplyco.bigcartel.com/">Evil Supply Co.</a> for that one!). I'm all into paper-crafty stuff, and papers and stamps and pens at the moment.... I mean I've always loved stationery and this gives me another out to go MAD with buying bits and pieces. If I could ever work out what exactly I wanted to go in it, I could put all this stuff to work in my Book of Shadows!</div>
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Here are a couple from my area. The first is a kererū, or NZ wood pigeon, sitting on the kowhai tree in my back garden. They love those things and fight with the tuis over them in spring and early summer. The second is one of the local beaches. The island on the right is the volcano Rangitoto. </div>
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My song of the moment is Lorde's <i>Yellow Flicker Beat</i>. I love this girl's groove. Did you see her at the AMAs? Daaamn though. Fuck it I'm just gonna post that video, because that lipstick smudge is PERF.</div>
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All my rituals seem to be late lately. I bought some framboise liqueur for Hel, Freyja and Freyr. I love that flavour, associate it so much with Hel. It's really more of an autumn thing, but my choices were limited. I've been slacking on my studies, which is bad of me. I tend to remember on Sunday night and think "welp too late now". I have to learn to plan my time better and then stick to that plan (which is the hard part). My head's always in the clouds.</div>
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I'm learning so much about history from <a href="http://www.bookdepository.com/Our-Troth-Kveldulf-Gundarsson/9781419635984?a_aid=Azelma"><i>Our Troth I</i></a>. I assume it's accurate enough, though I'm not putting huge amounts of trust in it, as you never know when the author is not an established historian. So much of the stuff about the "Steppe Peoples" or early Indo-Europeans, pre-migration, is so fascinating. There's a long section describing ideas of who their gods were, and that they honoured "the sky gods on rectangular altars facing east, and the terrestrial gods on round altars facing west". <b><i> </i></b>The idea of Tyr and Odin as descended from a one-handed "Bright Father" and a one-eyed "Seer" respectively is fascinating. Recommended reading for Heathens, definitely. </div>
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I've been neglecting this blog lately. You don't know how often I think "Man, I should post to Hagstone", or taken a picture I want to post, and then thought, "nah, I'll do it later" and never get around to it. It was the weather that pushed me into it today. I was jotting down a few thoughts in a notebook and felt moved to write about to people who would understand. Though I suppose for most of you it's nearly winter.</div>
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I'm in a state of change, or at least I feel that way. I'm on a new medication for my fibromyalgia, which might help, I suppose. I feel more positive, like I'm getting on top of things at last. I'm branching out, trying new ideas, determined to make something of myself, to make positive changes in all aspects of my life. </div>
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In that vein <a href="http://www.patreon.com/sanna">I've started a Patreon</a> for this blog. I figure it'll make me more likely to post, if nothing else! Don't feel obliged to back me, but do go and check out Patreon if you haven't before. There's likely some artist or other whose work you love that you'd like to back. </div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288389374807674671.post-83024592766380110332014-08-12T13:00:00.000+12:002014-08-12T13:00:00.475+12:00Playing at PaganI wrote the bulk of this post after finishing <i>Witch Crafting</i> by Phyllis Curott. Something she said near the end of the book stuck in my craw. I've been musing over it for a while now, asking others for their thoughts.<br />
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Curott is not alone in what I'm about to discuss - those who have read <i>The Spiral Dance</i> by Starhawk will recognise it. It is the concept of the gods not as real entities, but as, to use Curott's words, "anthropomorphic metaphors".<br />
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I know there are Pagans who don't believe in gods. That's fine. There are Pagans who view deities as archetypes or, indeed, anthropomorphic metaphors with whom one can work to understand more about one's own mind, in a Jungian sort of way. But I had, heretofore, imagined that most of these not-really-theistic Pagans were up front about it. You come across them, from time to time. Even if one disagrees with how they refer to the gods, they tend to be honest about their beliefs. But, as I have discovered, it is not always so.<br />
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What I don't really understand is why a person would bother spending so much time and effort writing about deities they don't believe in, from the standpoint - or the guise - of a religious person. Why spew forth love over ten pages for a goddess you don't actually think is real? Why, indeed, hold ritual several times a year for a deity you don't believe exists? Why the pretence? It seems so dishonest. <br />
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Is this because so many people have based their practice on Wicca, but have not been initiated? have no way to contact the deities of Wicca? That would make sense; they try to contact the deities and, with no luck, assume said deities are metaphors and then focus their rituals on self-help and general back-patting.<br />
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There's a term, play-gan, and I forget who came up with it. (Sorry.) Pagans who view the whole thing as a giant LARP. Not believing in gods but pretending to hold rituals for them because it's fun... or something. It's fun to pretend to be a witch, or a Pagan, or a mysterious person in black who holds <i>rituals</i> with <i>candles</i> and <i>knives</i>!<br />
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When I was younger, I very much liked Tamora Pierce (actually, I still do) and I read her "Circle of Magic" series. I love storms and I was overweight and shortsighted, and more at home with books than with people, so I identified strongly with Tris, the storm mage. She matched me far better than any of the other circle-of-four mages, and in many ways I feel still does. I still wear glasses though I'm no longer overweight, and I'm still more at home with books than people. I still love storms more than nearly anything - wind and rain, thunder and lightning.</div>
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A part of me also rebels against the thread, because I associate embroidery and sewing - along with baking, cooking, housekeeping - with housewifery, which has never appealed to me and which I find rather repellent. Sandy from Circle of Magic was never really my sort of person, and nor was her mentor Lark. They were homey people, and I'm more what you'd call a hermit. I will, occasionally, bake, but I feel out of sorts when doing so unless it is early autumn and the right-sort-of-day to be baking. (I have made scones in the past. Honestly that's the only thing I can remember baking.) I'll also make something if I really have a hankering for it, but that's about it. I don't like to cook anything that takes longer to make than it does to eat, because I feel a time deficit if I do. I'd rather buy clothing than make it myself. But I like the sensation of cross-stitch, so occasionally I'll feel the need to do something with my hands while I watch TV, and off I'll go to buy a cross-stitch pack or a set of threads. I've discovered I prefer bookmark packs, as when you've finished you get something <i>useful</i> out of it rather than something you'll put in a drawer and forget about. It's also a bit of a mission finding designs that aren't insipid and distressing, but there are more little "Fuck You" collections around nowadays. I found one on flickr not long ago with a Black Books quote: "Whores will have their trinkets". Best thing ever. But, as I say, a part of me does not like the idea of working so much with thread. That's a part of myself that I ignore because thread is <i>practical</i>, and I'd be a fool to discard something so practical, simple and easy to find in favour of something big and flashy. When in need, a bit of stray thread from clothing will work just as well. </div>
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It's been forever! I can't even really tell you why. I feel like I've been moving forward with the fibro and the anxiety, makin' important strides for myself, keeping up with my Heathen study even (for the most part!). I was meant to update this blog once a week and I've left you hanging for over a month (she says, flattering herself that you all look forward to posts). I figured, what better way to get back into things than with a PIP entry?</div>
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Winter is here, but not as cold as it could be. Some days I find myself in a t-shirt, which bothers me, because winter shouldn't be t-shirt weather. Today is chilly, though. I've been waking earlier in the day, which is good. I even caught a few sunrises, which was a seriously magical thing. I think in my last post I talked about the magic of dusk, and dawn is magic too, in ways which are similar and at the same time utterly different. I want to experience more dawns. They are still and quiet and sacred. </div>
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I bought a claw, in silver, because I thought it was beautiful. When I started wearing it it felt like it <i>fit</i> me in a way a piece of jewellery hasn't in a long time. This past Old Year's Night, I asked my Lady to bless it. It doesn't feel as much of a tool as my old pewter pendant did, but it still feels <i>special</i> in some way. It's interesting, though, that different metals feel a bit different magic-wise. I hadn't really thought about it before, although it stands to reason. Pewter I feel like I can really use as a launching pad, something to bounce myself off've or as an amplifier, while silver is much more sly and whispering and reserved. Maybe it has something to do with the way pewter is an alloy, and has been smelted together, while silver is just its own thing.</div>
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I hold winter-finding, my Heathen autumnal holiday, on the first cold day after the autumnal equinox. This year, it didn't fall until April 20th. It's a little unnerving, to have had such a long summer. In fact, now that the cold weather seems to be staying put, the change from summery to autumnal temperatures seems abrupt, and the cold nights have set in so quickly, and before I know it it's halfway through May and winter is <i>here, already!</i> </div>
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But the gods - or my wyrd - conspire to get me back to what I should be doing. Occasional pain flares from my new friend fibromyalgia force me into meditation to keep a handle on things. I've started using prayers and chants as "mantras", to calm and focus myself. "The earth, the air, the fire, the water, return return return return" works quite well, and I've been using another I wrote myself: <i>"Lord of the Dance, You are the Rhythm, Lady of Music, You are the Song"</i>. </div>
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Cyclone Lusi is a category 3 tropical cyclone and is headed my way. <i>I am so fucking pumped! We haven't had a decent cyclone since I was a kid! </i>....which is the general feeling among people my age. We're a nation who will go down to the beach to get a good view of a storm surge. We're pretty daft that way, although we prefer to think of ourselves as a hard lot. So we're looking forward to it, in a foolish, my-emergency-kit-is-not-up-to-standard unprepared sort of way.</div>
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I'm thinking more "spiritually" lately. Which is good. I feel like I'm returning to a place I haven't been in years. I'm working spiritual study further into my schedule, and I'm putting myself back in the "new student" role and taking a look at some 101 books with new eyes.</div>
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This week's endeavour is <a href="http://www.bookdepository.co.uk/Green-Witchcraft-Folk-Magic-Fairy-Lore-Herb-Craft-Aoumiel/9781567186901?a_aid=Azelma"><i>Green Witchcraft</i></a> by Ann Moura, that I might review when I'm done with it. So far, it's less awful than I thought it would be, but still pretty disappointing. I imagine it's worse if you're a new witch, picking it up hoping for something new and interesting. Most of it is basic sabbat info or stories about the author's family (who cares??) and it's filled with contradictions. On one page she talks about how her Catholic mother was a "green witch", and on the next says "green witchcraft" worships two soft-polytheistic deities. It's a religion or it isn't; make up your mind! There's a lot of info that's flat-out wrong, so not one for the newbies after all. (Freyja does not "represent peace"! Hagalaz doesn't mean "karma"! I mean I don't even know where you got that information.)</div>
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Each card's page in the accompanying book has three sections: an "About" that describes the nature of the card's character ("The <i>Grumpy Red Fairy</i>" is tired of being judged"); a "Speaks" section wherein the character gives advice directly to the reader ("Let's burst their boring bubble and go wild!"); and a "Divination Message" section wherein Cavendish explains what the card may mean in a reading ("When the <i>Grumpy Red Fairy</i> comes to play, it may be time to really just be your own true self"). This.... can be a bit confusing. And, as I mentioned, twee.<br />
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The <i>Oracle of Shadows and Light </i>is fairy-tale themed, but with a focus on misfits and outcasts. Personally, I'm not into the "sparkly things with wings" fairies generally, but these ones represent more sort of hidden concepts to me. So, I think because of the number of fairy cards, the number of people who would really love this deck is a bit reduced, just because some people who are into the misfits-and-outcasts aspect might be turned off by the sparkly aspect. There is quite a mix of characters, though, with angels, mermaids, and strange little girls.<br />
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The Kali card is beautiful but seems a bit out of place; she's the only goddess represented in this deck. (The Oracle of the Shapeshifters likewise has a single deity: Quetzalcoatl.) I think going with a more generic "fairy of destruction" or "angel of death" card may have been a better option.<br />
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<i>Shadows and Light</i> is I think made with the spiritual type in mind. There are certainly cards that encourage one to do vaguely spiritual activities such as wake up early and walk in nature. But it's still a deck that reads well for most people, and across various parts of one's life. Even the more spiritual cards have a definite physical, "mundane" aspect to them as well. My <i>Violet Angel</i> spoke of beginnings across the spectrum of life, not just spiritually. <br />
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Here's a sampler of a few of the cards I rather like in this deck. <i>Autumn is my Last Chance</i> is so sorrowful, the <i>Two Little Witches</i> so utterly creepy, the <i>Shallow Grave</i> so quiet, restful, sadly fatalistic. The whole deck is quite dark, but not in the same way as, say, the <i>Bohemian Gothic Tarot</i>. This deck is more about moving as one of the misfits, about the hidden secrets of the world.</div>
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The <i>Oracle of Shapeshifters </i>is, says the accompanying book, about change. To me, it seems to be more specifically about spiritual growth. It sounds weird to say, but I honestly would be hesitant about reading this deck for people who don't have a big spiritual focus in their lives. I occasionally do a reading on twitter or tumblr, for friends who are kinda into tarot but not (I hate myself for saying this) "magical types", and I feel like if I read this deck for them, I'd have to "translate" parts of it. Not because they wouldn't "get it" but like they don't have the context for it or they might be a bit scornful and they'd just be like "are you serious?" or something. (Some of my friends who say "sure, give us a reading" are particularly
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it if a reading seems to chime with them. But I'm still not keen on saying "you'll tap into the wisdom of the stars" or something.) A lot of the meanings are geared specifically towards the spiritual aspects of your life, so if you're looking for an all-purpose deck, I don't know that this will necessarily suit your purposes. On the other hand, if you're looking for a deck to help you along your own spiritual path, this might be great for the work you're doing at the moment. I mentioned above that the <i>Oracle of Shadows</i> has a spiritual focus too, but I found that deck a lot easier to read for others as there is more of a cross-over to other parts of life. If I felt a bit uncomfortable mentioning a spiritual aspect in a reading, I'd avoid that element of the card.<br />
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Again you have a few mermaids, a few fairies. Every card features an animal of some kind, from the impressive and popular like the wolf, to the humble hedgehog, to the poor misfits who never get spiritual representation, like the deep-sea angler fish. It feels much "greener" than <i>Shadows and Light</i>, which is a deck more caught in a shadowy, misty world of secrets. <i>Shapeshifters</i> is rooted in this world - admittedly reaching over towards that other world somewhat with its fairies and mermaids.<br />
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Some of the cards I like... <i>Wolf Moon</i> is the card that first drew me to this deck a year or two ago. It reminds me of a book I loved as a kid, <a href="http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/118758.Wolf_Woman"><i>Tanith</i></a>. <i>Little Red Riding Hood</i> is challenge, strength and agency. The <i>Deep Dark Sea Mermaid</i> is curious. I can't help but think of her looking up restfully at the stars shining through the ocean, though of course it would be impossible to see them from the depths. And <i>Once Upon a Midnight Dreary</i> feeds into my Poe obsession. She's an obsessed little artist with clever, helpful feathered muses.<br />
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Despite some similarities, the two decks don't really mesh. I bought them both because I thought I could mix them together and make one super-deck, but upon handling them, that really won't work. They both <i>feel</i> very different, very separate. <i>Little Red Riding Hood </i>and <i>Once Upon a Midnight dreary</i>, for example, look like they could be picked up from <i>Shapeshifters</i> and slotted into <i>Shadows and Light</i> without a problem, but in practice it doesn't work so well. They just feel out of their element. That's not where they <i>belong</i>.<br />
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Honestly, these decks are worth it to me just for the production value and the art. They're vibrant and gorgeous, and the illustrations have tonnes of character. Right now, I can't speak too much about how well they read, as I've only just started working with them; I've been working mostly with tarot for years and I think oracle decks like these will take a while for me to get used to. The meanings provided in the books are unusual for me, and I have difficulty wrapping my head around them. I do think a part of that is working how what sort of things they are best used to answer. Having said that, personally I wouldn't recommend them to the cartomancy beginner. They're a tricky shape, and have a bit of a feisty nature - which, given the cards, is to be expected.</div>
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<i>You can get your hands on the Oracle of Shadows and Light <a href="http://www.bookdepository.com/Oracle-Shadows-Light-Lucy-Cavendish/9781582703053?a_aid=Azelma">here</a></i><br />
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The "rocky shore" is one of those really "witchy" sorts of places. It's full of life, and potential tools. It's Border Country, places that are ocean one moment and earth the next. It's a spiritual place, for me. But it never fails that I go down to the shore that I am reminded how <i>utterly gross</i> nature can be.</div>
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It's not just the weird little insect creatures, or the hideous sand hoppers. It's the slime. Gods, the slime. And the really slippery, manky mud that looks like normal mud but whoops now you're on your arse. Like don't think you can sit down, because everything's covered in mank. No meditating for <i>you</i> on the rocky shore. </div>
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I was in the garden the other day, just sitting on the ground throwing a ball for the dog, and I look down and beside me there is a SPIDER. See that's the thing with nature. It <i>looks</i> pretty, and there are big trees and big fluffy animals, but then when you actually go into it it's pretty much just spiders and centipedes and other hideous stuff.</div>
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Even us witches who are all about bones and the Wild Wood and darkness and rot and shit like that tend to forget it's not all lovely maggots and leeches, some of it is CENTIPEDES. Fucking centipedes! GOD I HATE THEM. And cockroaches! I don't care if it's inside or outside if I see a cockroach I will get some bug spray and fucking kill that little bastard. </div>
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OK so story time, once I was going to sleep and I saw something moving and it was a cockroach! in my bedside drawer, so I thought "no way I can get it out of there right now" and shut the drawer. Then for good measure, I moved my pillow down the other end of the bed. I went to sleep. At 5am I woke up with a scritching feeling on the juncture of my thigh and my crotch, just at the line of my underwear. IT WAS THE COCKROACH. IT WAS TRYING TO GET INTO MY PANTIES. I mean what if I hadn't been wearing any?! <i>It could have been crawling over my genitals. Maybe INTO my genitals! AND LAID ITS EGGS IN MY VAGINA. </i></div>
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So basically I hate cockroaches and I will kill them all forever. Meanwhile centipedes are so utterly terrifying that I won't even go near them, and I am convinced spiders want to attack me. When I was 12 of them fell off a tree onto my head and I thought it was a twig so I reached up to brush it out, but it was a spider and it grABBED ONTO MY FINGER. I screamed like the little bitch I was and flailed my hand around and then burst into tears. </div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288389374807674671.post-2833555141480640732014-01-31T22:24:00.001+13:002014-01-31T22:24:25.879+13:00Return of the PBP: C is for Cernunnos<div style="text-align: justify;">
Today was going to be B for Baphomet but pretty much just read the wikipedia page. It was a name for Mohammed as interpreted by the Europeans, and then Levi attached it to his idea about some Sabbatic god he thought Pagans worshipped and then Crowley got into the idea. So like if you're a Thelemite, I getcha, Thelema's got its own thing going on, but if you're a witch being all "I worship Baphomet" then idk man. Like unless you're a Muslim as well then idk. </div>
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Cernunnos is a Gallic god worshipped by the ancient Gauls. We have only <b>one</b> recorded instance of his name. It is assumed that the name applies to the familiar cross-legged figure with the torc and the snake, as well as various other representations of horned deities across the Celtic world. Assumed, mark you, not certain; we don't really know for sure, we can only guess, as there is no written information about this god. Only that one name, in that one place.</div>
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We know bugger all about this god. We can guess that he is associated with fertility because he is often presented with animals. That's about it. Gallic reconstructionists and other worshippers of Cernunnos thus have to utilise a tonne of UPG in their worship. Having to utilise a lot of UPG is hard; it's like walking on a tightrope without a net underneath you. And in a way that's particularly fascinating, although my Gallic friends, I do not envy you. I have enough difficulty as it is with Sigyn.</div>
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Cernyunnos is not the god of Wicca. We know that, because the god of Wicca is described as "the God of the Isles" and Cernunnos is Continental, not British. There are attempts to link him to Irish heroes but they're not all that successful. To be honest, I'm not sure why people have adopted this name for their own horned gods to this degree. I mean I know it means "horned", but really, surely it only confuses matters? It makes no more sense to call one's non-Gallic god Cernunnos than it does to call one's non-Greek god Pan. I don't really understand why people do it. I mean, in Heathenry you have a couple of entities that share the same name and it's confusing enough as it is. I can't imagine if, like, people worshipping an entirely different pantheon came in and called one of their gods Helblindi or something. I'm not saying "don't do this", not at all, I'm just saying "I don't really get why people do this, it's confusing".</div>
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You know me, I worship a Horned God. I am fairly certain He is not Cernunnos. I am also fairly sure He is not the God of Wicca. I do not think He has a name. Maybe it's something you can't express in speech, like the growth of a plant or the stirring of the wind.</div>
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Hello all. Today's post is just a flargle of things, to make me feel like I'm a productive human being. I'll post something re: PBP later in the week, so I'm caught up on my letters. B. ....Blessed Be, and why I don't say it? Baphomet, and why he's not in any way related to Paganism? (Fucking seriously, people. All you have to do is read the wikipedia page.)</div>
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Anyway! So here I am sitting on my bed. I did some dumbbell exercises last night and I'm exhausted; fatigue sucks, because I like to run and I've been feeling much too tired lately. My puppy is lying on the end of my bed. The weather today is cooler than it has been lately, which is nice. It's been windy this week. I like the wind. </div>
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This week, I did some work on Laguz, which is one of the easier runes to get a handle on. I feel like the further the Futhark moves away from the BIG concepts, the easier things get, but I don't know... Pertho was a hard one for me. I felt like I was missing a big part of the Mystery there, and to me all the stuff about childbirth was a red herring. Ah well. I'll give it another go the next time I sort through the Futhark. </div>
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I am excited, because I splurged on a couple of oracle decks I've been wanting for a while, <a href="http://www.bookdepository.co.uk/Oracle-Shadows-Light-Lucy-Cavendish/9781582703053?A_aid=Azelma"><i>Oracle of Shadows and Light</i></a> and <a href="http://www.bookdepository.co.uk/Oracle-Shapeshifters-Lucy-Cavendish/9781582703763?a_aid=Azelma"><i>Oracle of the Shapeshifters</i></a>. I love love LOVE Jasmine Becket-Griffith's art. I had this idea originally of combining the decks - they're only 30 cards each so I figure, you know, it'll give more variety and depth to have more cards to draw from. But I'll have to see how that works when they get here. Their energies might not combine well. Suuuuper pretty, though! I saw another deck from these two somewhere that's listed as "upcoming", one about vampires, which reminded me that I wanted to snag these so I looked 'em up and the prices are pretty good at the moment. I still feel a bit naughty!</div>
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I'm trying to pray in the mornings. I never did get around to that "pray five times a day" thing. My issue is that my sleeping patterns are really skewed compared to the usual, and it isn't helped by my fibromyalgia when sometimes I sleep really poorly and other times I sleep 12 hours. So matching the times with the prayers is a bit awkward. Nevertheless I sketched out a little prayer for myself and I'm trying it upon rising. It's interesting praying before my morning coffee! My mind is full of cotton wool and I don't feel as able to connect to the Gods, but that's interesting in itself and I think the experience of that will benefit me. </div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288389374807674671.post-30129811736956141192014-01-19T01:53:00.000+13:002014-01-19T01:53:18.133+13:00Return of the PBP: A is for Athame<div style="text-align: justify;">
Long time readers may remember I gave the Pagan Blog Project a go in 2012, and gave up somewhere around L when I fell increasingly far behind. I had some <a href="http://hagstone.blogspot.co.nz/2012/01/on-differences.html">frustrations</a> with it, but I did also get a few great essays out of the project. Looking back now, I'm surprised how much I wrote. That, of course, would be part of the reason I stopped; I was putting a heap of effort into each post and it was tiring. I started to avoid doing it. I skipped the PBP last year; I'd been hoping for a different theme. I figured this year they'd <i>have</i> to change it, because I mean surely people have run out of things to write for X by this point. But a friend on a forum mentioned he was doing it sort of the other way around: picking something to write about, and explaining why he doesn't use this tool or subscribe to this belief. I might give that a go. And this time around, I'll only do it once every two weeks, or maybe even only when I can't think of something to write but i want to update.</div>
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I tried to, in the beginning. I've always liked daggers, ever since I was a child, so the idea of using one in ritual sounded like a bonus point for this religion i had discovered. A dagger is a good tool for channelling energy; it's metal and therefore a good conductor, and it's pointed at the end. It worked, sure. The problem was that it was... superfluous. I didn't need it. It felt good to use, and for many people that would be enough, but for me, after a while it just seemed unnecessary and irrelevant. It was one of those aspects of Wicca-derived ritual that didn't resonate with me; I didn't really grok all the symbolism (and how could I without initiation?) and the symbolism provided by the 101 books I was reading did not satisfy for long. And again, for many people the symbolism works. For me, it just.... fell flat. It didn't seem like <i>enough</i>. Purely as a tool, the athame worked for what I used it for, but I only used it for one thing: circle-casting. </div>
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It wasn't long after I dropped a few tools from my practice that I stopped struggling with circles, too. Again circles had always worked all right for me, but had seemed a bit pointless. I always felt awkward about them. Always felt unsatisfied. I think they would work a lot better in a coven setting, but being alone, it always felt... well, awkward is the only word I can really use to describe it. It was a poor fit.</div>
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So after a while circles went from my practice, and I started fooling around with new ideas for ritual. That has been good for me, as a whole. Not hemming myself in with a circle has given me more room to work both physically and energy-wise. (Again, this is not a one-size-fits-all experience. Some people can do more within a circle than they can out of one.) I incorporate more dance. I play more with smoke and light. I don't worry about accidentally exceeding the limits of my circle. I use hardly any tools, just candles and an incense holder (or a Hammer if I'm doing a Heathen blót), and in a way I wish I had more tools to use. Of course, not having them means ritual is a lot simpler to set up and perform, and I can do it elsewhere without lugging a bunch of stuff with me. </div>
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I like tools, or at least the idea of them. I've been gifted a wand and I like it, I like it as a thing just for having. I just.... have no use for it. I'm a person who likes <i>things</i>, who likes to collect, and it would
be nice to have a ritual use for tools, even ones which are very
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use in ritual. (So, y'know, have ideas? Share 'em!) And so it was with the athame: I liked it as far as it went, but it didn't fit in with my practice. I still have my old athame, and I'm fond of it because now what it represents to me is those early days in which I explored Paganism and witchcraft. </div>
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So, any knives in my rituals will be used for blood-letting. It's not something I've done in ritual before, but the option is always there, and getting a sharp seax for blooding runes might be interesting. </div>
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......I have to say, looking down this year's As on the PBP website, I'm very impressed at the range of subjects being blogged. I have to guess that some people have done the PBP before and are stretching further afield for topics, or perhaps more people are joining in. Whatever the reason, there's more variety, and a lot of intelligent looking posts. That's awesome. I can't wait to jump in. </div>
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Many of you will associate the new year with Midwinter, or the beginning of winter in the form of Samhain or a similar holiday. For me, the secular new year begins in the middle of summer, and the spiritual one in the middle of winter. But there's a spiritual sense of newness to this time of year, so I often begin new projects at this time whether I think about it that way or not. Maybe it's just the familiarity of secular new year and how it's a part of my subconscious, or the way everyone's on holiday and so relaxed, or the way everything is growing and joyful. </div>
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Personally I'm not a summer person, as long-time readers will know. I don't like the heat or the brightness, and I get very anxious about sunburn and skin cancer. I find the height of summer very oppressive and spend a lot of time indoors, only venturing outside late in the evening. However, I do very much like the general feeling of the new year: the, well, newness of it. I like the re-orienting of everything to a new number on the calendar, the general feeling from everyone of "what will this year bring?", especially now when everything in technology and science is moving so fast and discovering and creating so much. Culture casts off the dusty old year and there's such anticipation and positivity and wonder. Love love LOVE that. And I love to incorporate that into my life on a personal level as well. I make resolutions and start new projects, create blogs, and get inspired to try new things.</div>
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I'm starting a new planner this year, one that helps you focus on your goals. It's called <a href="http://www.passionplanner.com/">Passion Planner</a> and you can download the weekly layout to give it a try yourself. It's already been really useful for me, especially as an anxious person. In a way I feel I'm putting pressure on myself short-term which freaks me out, but long-term it lays out - or rather, you lay out - your goals and steps to get there, so in that sense, the ability to plan ahead but still leave things flexible reduces anxiety as well. It's kind of exciting to me. The goal for this month is to look for a literary agent. I'm terrified! haha. </div>
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I haven't made any new year's resolutions, as such. Last year was a bit of a "down-time" year for me, where I didn't do much except work towards wellness and discover some of the things I wanted out of life. Throughout the year I sort of laid out things I wanted to get done on a weekly or daily basis: write every day, journal every day, exercise every day, meditate every day; read eddas every week, study Heathenry and witchcraft every week, blog at least once a week. I started doing those things when I decided I wanted to do them, with degrees of success. Now I have a really good planner, I can record when I do them, remind myself to do them, and plan my time better than I have done before. It's good. I feel productive - or at least, in a better position to be productive! ;)</div>
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Sometimes I fall behind in my practice, and I feel a lot of shame about that. I feel like the gods will be frowny in my direction.<b><i> </i></b>And in some ways that's a bit ridiculous of me; the Havamal does say better to offer too little than too much. Especially with the amount of fatigue I've been dealing with on the one hand and my anxiety on the other. It's a balance I'm having to work out. At the same time, some of those feelings of shame are probably a <i>result</i> of the anxiety. It's something I have to keep in mind but at the same time it doesn't make life any easier to remind myself of that.<br />
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Another meditation track this month! This time it's "Escape from Gravity" by Deuter. Sort of "the Shire" meets China. It's emotional and soothing and inspiring and everything.<br />
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The other night's Midsummer ritual was bare-bones, and very brief. I wasn't at home and didn't have my altar or anything. In a way it was perfectly pleasant and fine, but I wish I had done it a day earlier with my altar and so on. I do enjoy ritual.<br />
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I've discovered a much better way of learning the runes is to read the poems on a Monday and let them percolate in my mind through the week. Every so often I'll stop and have a muse, and come up with some new thought that I'll rush to scribble down. Or I'll have a spare moment, and flick open one of my rune-books to read what this person or that had to say. It's less mentally intensive than sitting down all at once with all my books, which is good, because I can work on runes for an hour and then be utterly spent for the rest of the evening.<br />
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And Helgi! The whole reincarnation thing! That was really interesting. That's one of the benefits of really making the effort with my reading, I suppose! Speaking of, I received "<a href="http://www.bookdepository.com/Word-Exchange-Greg-Delanty/9780393342413?a_aid=Azelma">The Word Exchange</a>" for Eksmas. It's Saxon poetry! Most of it is probably Christian but I'm still looking forward to picking my way through it.<br />
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Tonight I read the Second Lay of Helgi. I was not a fan of the First Lay which.... confused me. I may have been over-tired when I read it. Actually, I was really over-tired tonight, but the lay is <i>so good</i> that I lost that tiredness. <i>So good</i>, you guys. MAN. Like. So romantic. I can't even.<br />
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And it surprised me. It surprised me because for one, although there are mentions of people being the rebirth of so-and-so, I've always read that as metaphorically i.e. they embody the same qualities as so-and-so, and read "they were born again" as "they lived on as legends". And for another, except for a brief hand-waving in one or two 101 books, and on a couple of forums, I've rarely come across this discussed in Heathenry before. Hey! Reincarnation was a thing at one point! By the time lay was written it was superstition, OK, but the Heathen beliefs spanned a fair amount of time and incorporated changing beliefs and practices. Such is the joy of a folk religion. But often when it's brought up, it's shouted down as someone's hold-over belief from when they were "Wiccan". Yep, that's right. I have seriously actually seen people put down for just bringing up reincarnation: newbie-related snarking, "This is Heathenry, not Wicca", etc.<br />
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Excellent! Good ol' Hilda has a whole section on rebirth, <i>and</i> she directly quotes the very section I just stumbled across. High five, internet! She also gives several other examples from the lore, which makes it all the more bothersome to me that it hardly ever comes up. Granted, Heathens tend to focus on their living rather than their dying, but on the other hand reverence of the dead is a massive aspect of the religion also.</div>
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Anyway now I am really tired, and I am going to finish writing this and go to bed. My eyes are all sore. BUT if someone ever tries to bitch you out for bringing up rebirth as a Heathen concept you can just go <i>Oh yeah well what about Helgi?! </i>and that'll shut him up. Mmmmmhmm. </div>
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Oh and P.S., I didn't think <i>Road to Hel</i> would be available anywhere as it's a notoriously hard to find book and it's been out of print for a while, but it turns out it was <a href="http://www.bookdepository.co.uk/Road-Hel-Hilda-Roderick-Ellis/9781107632349?a_aid=Azelma">reprinted</a> early this year. As always when it comes to H.E. Davidson, it's exemplary. (I may not agree with every hypothesis she puts forward but it's damn well researched.) <a href="http://www.bookdepository.co.uk/Road-Hel-Hilda-Roderick-Ellis/9781107632349?a_aid=Azelma">Grab yourself a copy</a>. </div>
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The necklace I commissioned came today! It's <i>exceedingly </i>gorgeous. I know it looks gorgeous in the picture but it's even <i>more</i> gorgeous in real life.</div>
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The green stones are moss agate. The grey are dark larvikite, and they
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eye (or hawk's eye I think it's sometimes called), and the clear stones are quartz :3 I <i>love</i> the degree of variation in the green, and the way the larvikite could be stormy skies or stone peaks. The quick sliver of shine from the tiny tiger's eye is like a whisper, a ghost, here and gone; the flash of lightning or of a blade; and the quartz may as well be ice. </div>
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<a href="http://morgandria.deviantart.com/">Morgandria</a> names her pieces, and this one she called The Silent Wood. I love having jewellery pieces that have names. </div>
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Greenwood is aptly named; the stones really do look like wood. I believe the stone is called serpentine and it definitely has a snakey feel to it. It has a fresh, living quality to it. It has a simplicity to its nature, too. It's a pleasant, fresh spring breeze, heavy with morning dew.</div>
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I am a big fan of Morg's work (and Morg as a person!) and I know for sure I'll be ordering more from her in the future, and probably commissioning more personal pieces as well. She works a lot with stones and she has a good feel for what works together, and she can take a set of ideas and coalesce them into something beautiful. I really encourage you to go take a look at her work. It's gorgeous stuff. Many shiny things! Check out her website, <a href="http://www.witchscauldron.net/creations/main.htm">Witch's Cauldron Creations</a>, and <a href="http://www.etsy.com/shop/morgandria">her Etsy page.</a></div>
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For the past couple of days I've been collecting prayers and folk charms. I found one by a user called SierraDawn on the comments to <a href="http://www.squidoo.com/paganchants">this page</a> that got me thinking about folk charms and spells, and I'm in the mood now to go hunt for some interesting ones. I used her one today and felt better for it. One uses it when adding sugar to coffee or tea and goes thus:</div>
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